Giving up

But not because it was too hard. I just realized that a lot of what I want to write about is actually really personal and I didn't realize how many people were actually reading this.

At first I was going to try and just keep a seperate journal and continue the blog but thats just sooo time consuming. and not really worth it. so.... congrats to the betters.

Sorry to disappoint. I am sure that i will occassionally post. I do like the feeling of it all. Maybe just not the whole picture thing. at least not until I get a good camera and can actually take decent photos.

Blagh can you tell I am rambling? I feel kind of lonely lately. Not like in a no one likes me sense. but in a no one to talk to because they don't get me kind of way

ok now I am just being over dramatic teenager. dangit.

Maybe you will hear from me again soon!!

Elvis... and Tools....

Today is the birthday of Elvis Presley. so the picture for today is.....

I found these at Brass Armadillo. So technically I cheated and took two pictures on the same day... oh well :)

Today has been another great day :) I had great lessons at church, and got that remotivation I always do. It feels so good :)

ALSO... I sat next to this very cute boy during the fireside tonight, he put his arm around me, and was just flirting up a storm the whole time. and usually I would fall right into that little trap... but lately I have been on my guard, so I saw right through him. Jokingly, after he asked me to marry him, I said, " so do you do this to all the new girls? or am I just that pretty?" to which he asked me I just called him a whore. I had to laugh at that but I gave that "if the shoe fits" kind of look. After it was over, there was no exchange of phone numbers, no hope to see you again, nothing. he just got up and was flirting with another girl. I was kind of proud of myself for not letting him get to me. Not saying he is a bad guy, he is really nice. But then to have two of my friend approach me afterward and warn me about the guy I was sitting next to just confirmed my preconceived notions. But it felt good to not fall for a boy just because he was paying attention to me like I did in high school.

However.... I really do want a boy!!!! I am getting a bit ansy... :)

Today will be remembered for Tools :)

Brass Armadillo

Saturday, January 7th, 2012



Ok, so I was just introduced to one of the coolest stores EVER!!!!! on saturday night, Spencer Parrack, Maerin Call, and Luke Frampton (and me of course) all went to the Brass Armadillo Thrift mall. AMAZING!!!! Absolutely loved it. wanted to buy a ton of stuff, bought some books instead :) which, afterwards we went to Bookmans (my number one favorite book store) and I got $20 worth of books for free :) which was a total of like 9 books! happy day. Anyway.... we found these hats, and I really loved them, they made me want to be back in the 20's.

Now, there wasn't a whole lot of philisophical thinking going on today. Just a lot of happiness. It felt so good to just go out with friends and have a fantastic night. we went to Brass armadillo, Bookmans, olive garden, and then to the movie theatre to see We bought a zoo. which, by the way, is a phenominal movie. I cried, and I laughed, but I felt like there was so much back story missing... however, still one of my new favorite movies.

"Hey mister! Everyone thinks your a .... but i don't think that's true!" - Rosie

So today will be remembered for having a great time with friends!!! Old and new :)

Big Brothers

I was told by one of my coworkers, who has known me since I was born, that I am a female clone of my big brother, Josh, who also works with us. This is not the first time I have been told things like this. but it wasn't until I was looking at pictures of us when we were younger that I really saw it.

 

Josh Turley



Jessica Turley

Now, I know it isn't exactly a clone picture, but had I not been obnoxiously squinting my eyes, my goodness I would start to wonder. :)

Truth is, I really admire my brother. I don't think he knows how much I truly look up to him, or how much he has influenced a lot of my decisions, but he is one of my biggest role models. So when people tell me I am just like my brother, it means so much more to me than just looking like him. It gives me a sense of accomplishment. Like, I am doing an ok job if they think I am like him :) His passion for music is probably something that drove me the most, because music is such a huge part of me, and that came from him. He is an amazing musician and I only wish I could be half as good as he is. He also has a phenominal family. I absolutely adore his kids and his wife. Plus, Josh gets me. I can talk to him about anything, and I have! He has been through a lot of stuff with me, and more, he has always been there to help me, to protect me, just like a big brother is suppose to.

Now, if you are another sibling of mine and feeling a little left out, no worries, I still love you too!!!!!!! and there will be plenty of opportunity for you to get an entire post about you!!!!! :)

Today will be remembered for big brothers :)

Fire

This post is for yesterday, January 4th, 2012. For any of you that are betting against me, you haven't won. My goal was to take or post a picture every day. and I took pictures yesterday and today, I just didn't post them. so today you get two posts!

Last night I went a bonfire, and I was just so completely mezmerized by the fire. I couldn't stop watching it, and thinking about how amazing it was. I really can't describe what i was thinking or the effect the fire had on me. The way it just ate the trees, or licked the air, and spat the embers out, the crackle and snap, like twigs breaking in the forest, it was just so engulfing. Not to make myself sound like a pyro, which I know I totally do, but I really do just love fire :)

I have several pictures that I really liked, but nothing really captured the elements of the fire as well as the video did. It is short, and pay no attention to the random talking in the background.

So yesterday I thought a lot about fire! I promise I am not a pyro!!!

LIGHTS! CAMERA! ACTION!!!

This is going to be a more boring post for the readers, but a very long trip down memory lane. The picture is the contents of just one of my boxes of programs and tickets from differnt events, such as basketball and baseball games, broadway and shkespeare shows, band and choir concerts, and pamphlets for places like the statue of Liberty and the Empire state building. Below the picture is the list of everything in the box, and as much as I can remember about the event.



Movie Tickets (only a tiny fraction of the ones I have saved)
- The Uninvited - Saturday January 31st, 2009 - Kody Klein is the only person I can remember being at that movie, and that might not even be true!! I remember it was the very first scary movie I actually willingly watched!!
- Avatar - Tuesday December 22nd, 2009 - I texted Steven Newport right after this movie and said something along the lines of "well that was a very environmentalist remake of pocohantas" and he said something like "really, that is all you got out of that movie?" I realized that I had been getting way into politics at that point, and I most definitely had been.
- 17 Again - Wednesday April 22nd, 2009 - I don't remember anything about seeing this in theaters....
- Tron: Legacy - Monday December 20th, 2010 - Family Home Evening, my dad loves Tron, and he was so excited for this movie. I really really loved it!!!!
- The Karate Kid - Monday, June 14th 2010 - don't rememer going to it, but I love this movie as well :)
- Percy Jackson - Saturday February 20th, 2010
- Robin Hood - Saturday June 5th, 2010 - I don't remember this movie, and I realized it is because I slept through it, because this was the same day I got back from the Pioneer Treck, and I was DEAD!!
- How To train Your Dragon - Friday April 23rd, 2010 - ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVORITE MOVIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Holy cow.... I have soooo many tickets.... ok I am just going to type the movie and the date from now on, unless its something really important!

- Charlie St. Cloud - Saturday August 7th, 2010
- Chronicles of Narnia - Saturday, December 25th, 2010
- Harry Potter and the.... - Wednesday June 15th, 2009 (assuming it was Half Blood Prince)
- Harry Potter and the... - Saturday, November 20th 2010 (Deathly Hallows Part 1)
- Harry Potter and the... - Thursday November 18th, 2010 - 12:01 AM :) Midnight Premier of DHP1!
 - Eclipse - July 1st, 2010
- High School Musical 3 - Saturday October 25th, 2008 - Morgan Brewster


Event and Show Tickets
- D-Backs - Wednesday Spetember 22nd, 2010
- Les Miserables - Saturday July 5th, 2008 - Tuacahn Ampitheatre
- The Two Gentleman of Verona - Saturday July 12th, 2008 - Shakespearean Festival - Cedar City (these were my favorite vacations!!!!!)
- Cyrano de Bergerac - Friday July 11th 2008 - SF CC (One of my favorite shows)
- Othello - Saturday July 12th 2008 - SF CC (Second favorite show)
- The Sound of Music - Friday July 4th, 2008 (This was the first musical I had every seen as a kid, My mom and I would always watch it together, that and Titanic!!
- Fab Four Live - Friday November 27th 2009 - Las Vegas - Thanksgiving in Vegas!!
- Boys like Girls - Thursday May 1st, 2008 - First concert I had ever been too on my own, with friends. Morgan Brewster :)
- Phoenix Suns vs LA Clippers - Friday december 25th 2009 - My christmas present with my dad :) so much fun!!!
- Wicked - Tuesday July 21st, 2009 - My first official date, I was with Ryan McMahon and we had Front row seats at Gammage Theatre. I will never forget that night!!!
- Cinderella - April 10th 2010 - Liberty High School
- Radio city Music Hall, NYC - Stage Door Tour - Monday, March 14th 2011 - Part of the NYC Trip my senior year, my daddy came with me. One of the best trips ever. i absolutely loved NYC. I loved having my dad there and the friendships I made and things I learned. words cannot describe. That will have to have an entire post all its own!!!!
- Empire State Building - March 10th    2011 - Amazing.
- PHX Suns vs SA Spurs - Monday may 3rd, 2010
- PHX Suns vs Utah Jazz - Tuesday Obtober 12th 2010
- AZ D-Backs - Friday September 24th, 2010 - RTA Company Party - Paige Baughman came with me!
- Oliver - March 24th 2011 - Liberty High School
************ MARRY POPPINS ON BROADWAY WITH MY DADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!************
                              Saturday March 12th, 2011 in New York City. MOST FAVORITE MUSICAL OF ALL TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Disney on Ice - Friday January 21st, 2011 - Coop field trip! I was partners with Kara Weiss and we had Cole, the grumpiest kid ever!!!! but I loved this day :)
-Shrek the Musical - Tuesday january 4th 2011 - Maerin Call invited me, such a funny musical :)
- The Statue of Liberty - March 15th 2011 - So not what i was expecting.... but amazing.
- Mercury Game against San Antonia Stars - Friday June 18th 2010 - Courtney Kealer and I had tickets to a suite for this game and we facebook stalked a really hot missionary hahaha
- Two Boarding passes - one from phx to detroit and from detroit to kennedy :) March 12th 2011


Programs:
- GCC Choir Concert May 7th 2009
-Suns vs Clippers, December 25th 2009
- Aint Misbehavin - This is when I decided I didn't want to be on Broadway.
- Shakespeare Festival 2010
- Ironwood  - The Secret Garden - March 9th
-SMHS Choir and Orchestra Concert - March 3rd, 2010
- SMW New Beginnings - 2010
- SMHS Christmas Choir Concert - December 3rd, 2009
- Les Mis and The Sound of Music - Summer of 2008
- Shakespeare Festival 2008
- Wicked July 2009
- Legacy of Faith    November 7th 2009
- GCC Choir Concert December 10th 2009
- The Odd Couple - SMHS - November 4th - 8th
- Snow White and the 7 Deafies - March 13th 2009 - AZ School for the Deaf and the Blind
- Into the woods - March 7th - Ironwood High School
- The Music Man - October 23rd - 30th - SMHS - First musical that I was in the Pit on the keyboard and not on stage performing
- GCC Choir Concert - October 22nd 2009
- Arsenic and Old Lace - April 13 - 16  - First show at Sunrise that I was not involved in at all....
- Pippin - Summer Theatre - June 15-17
- Oliver - LHS March 23rd-April 1st
****************MARRY POPPINS ON BROADWAY IN NEW YORK CITY****************
- Shrek the Musical - ASU Gammage
- Phx Suns Play offs semifinals game 1 vs Spurs
- SMHS Varisty Choir and Jazz Band Concert - May 14th 2009


- Memorial Mass for Morgan Elise White at the Church of St. Thomas More on December 18th 2004. Loving Memory....


Well that was a fun trip down Memory lane. Sorry that was so lame for any readying....

Today will be remembered for remembering the good times :)

Dead Ends and Happy Endings

It has been a fantastic day :) and so I write this next post with hesitation because it may seem a bit morbid, but it just kind of popped into my head when I took my picture for the day. I have been trying to twist it in any way I could to make it a happy picture, but it was what hit me today, so I must post it.

There is a dead end sign right next to my house, because I live in a double cul-de-sac, and the sign is hidden in this big tree. I have lived in this house for almost six years now and I never noticed it the way I did today. It is so deceiving! I remember I use to get so frustrated because soooo many people would come into the cul-de-sac and just turn around.... because they missed the sign.... They didn't know where they were going and they drove right into the dead end. now fortunately for the reality of this all they weren't stuck there, but in a metaphorical way, how often do we walk right into a dead end because we weren't watching? we weren't paying attention to all the signs??? The ironic part is, there is a stop sign just a few feet away from this Dead End sign. Maybe, if we followed the signs and directions a little better and a little more often, we would see the stop sign, and actually stop, and observe, look both ways, double check, and then decide where we want to go, we would see the dead end sign and go the other way.

Just some food for thought ;)


NOW on a much lighter and happier note... I received one of the best emails ever from one of my missionaries. His grandfather passed away a year ago, not a member of the church, and a few weeks ago, he was able to do the work for his grandfather. I have never felt so much hope from him, from his words. and his testimony that he shared with me brought tears to my eyes. He has changed so much, and I am sooo proud of the man he is becoming. one more year!!!! No matter who either of us ends up with in the end, or where life takes us, I have a really good feeling that we will both get the Happy ending we have been waiting for.

So that was my day today :) It will be remembered for Dead Ends and Happy Endings!

The House of Dreams

Ok, so I feel that a warning for this post is necessary: It will be cheesy. but it is all true to what I have been feeling and thinking today.

Today I have been thinking a lot about how people get stuck with these titles and images. very high school like. If you are a jock in high school you feel the need to be so in college. If you were always that straight A student validictorian, that is who you feel the pressure to continue being in the ivy league university you got a full ride scholarship to. And not to say that these things aren't who a person really is, but that the image wasn't one they created for themselves. they were the canvas instead of the paper, the instrument instead of the musician. both of which are beautiful, but not their own. They allowed the world to paint and play them. That was what high school was for me. I tried sooooo hard to defy all the stereotypes, to go against what everyone was telling me to be, and I think in that time it was what I needed to be who I want to be now, but had I just listened to me, to my soul, instead of the silly games that people play with my head. I did stupid things in High School. Who doesn't? and it took those mistakes then for me to figure out who I want to be NOW. so it is a good thing I suppose. but I fear that most people don't ever get the change to get a new canvas and be the painter, or pick up the guitar and write a new song. I am one of the lucky ones, because I have figured it out. I was always the choir geek. Choir President, at least two choir classes a year if not more, every play/musical, drama club secretary for two years, thought that someday I would be on Broadway. I did it because people told me I was good at it, they encouraged me, they expected great things out of me. And I knew I could deliver, so I did. But it wasn't until this last semester in college, where I wasn't expected to produce greatness on the stage, or to lead a class, that I finally realized I didn't have the desire to be that person.

So today, I decided to persue a career in Interpreting :)

Now..... How in the world does this relate to my picture?????

Well, I have always had a deep fascination with this house, and at one time i know it was absoultely gorgeous. The architecture on the inside is so beautiful, and it saddens me to see what has become of it. However, it gives me hope. it shows me opportunity. This house is the way it is because that is what people have made of it, but the core of it is so much more. with the right inspiration and love and care, this house will be brought back to its full potential. Someday, my dream is to fix this house. maybe move into it, depends on where life takes me. but of all the dreams I have ever had, this is one I don't intend on letting go.

SO today will be remembered for dreams: past, present, and future. 

January 1st 2012

Today my best friend Courtney went back up to BYU-I leaving me all alone!!! but we had a great last night. I drank WAY too much martinellis sparkling cider. I love that stuff!!! hence my picture for today.

well one of them at least. The other is of The Book of Mormon, a very heavily discussed topic today at church. Most definitely oneof the best Sacrament Meetings I have been to in a while. I now have a new quote that I absolutely love :)

"He asked me how I was doing and I looked up to see his back turned, but I know he knew exactly hwat I was doing and it was not what he had asked me to do" - Brother Nally

This really made me think, how often to I take this approach with my Heavenly Father? How many times do I pray to him without first asking for forgiveness, knowing that he witnessed my sins, that he knows exactly what I am doing wrong. How often to I just pretend that it didn't happen? I need to start living in a way that shows that I have the Holy Ghost with me as a companion, that demonstrates my love for my Savior, Jesus Christ.

We also talked about the Book of Mormon, and what it holds in store for us. I have only read it all the way through once, and it took me a very long time, so now that the stake goal is to read it this year, I am so excited!

Three P's of the Book of Mormon:
Power - Most correct book, keystone of our religion, allows us to draw nearer to God
Purposeful study - Brings peace and light, shows us how to approach situations and life, teaches us to be Christ-like
Promises - Able to resist temptation, stay on the straight and narrow and gain eternal life

So today will be remembered for Sparkling Cider and The Book of Mormon. sounds like one of the best ways to start the year off!!!